To early for suffering..?!

It is 3:35 am..and I can't sleep because this feelings are to strong..this sorrow is to violent.
I wonder why do we get "stabbed" by the ones we love the most..by those who we want to help them and make 'em happy.... why do we get hurt by those people that we care about the most.....it's "okay" when you..get a wound..but what if that happens to often?!....its transforming in a ghastly wound....!!?
I feel all this...i feel like...i'm hated..and nobody wants my help because they are afraid i will take advantage..or i actually want to hurt them....they misunderstand me...
It bothers me to see that...I'm trying...but they IGNORE...me?!..my feelings?...is this too much? am I asking for too much?... Should i became numb to all this...or keep my self for someone who's ready to understand and receive my feelings..
These days I figure out that everyone wants to somebody to listen to them...
Ioan 1:10 El era în lume, şi lumea a fost făcută prin El, dar lumea nu L-a cunoscut.
John 1:¹⁰He was in the world, and the world was made by him, and the world knew him not.

Ioan 16:33 V-am spus aceste lucruri ca să aveţi pace în Mine. În lume veţi avea necazuri; dar îndrăzniţi, Eu am biruit lumea."
John 16:³³these things I have spoken to you, that in me ye may have peace, in the world ye shall have tribulation, but take courage -- I have overcome the world.'

Ioan 17:9 Pentru ei Mă rog. Nu Mă rog pentru lume, ci pentru aceia, pe care Mi i-ai dat Tu; pentru că sunt ai Tăi: - John 17:9`I ask in regard to them; not in regard to the world do I ask, but in regard to those whom Thou hast given to me, because Thine they are,

Ioan 17:11 Eu nu mai sunt în lume, dar ei sunt în lume, şi Eu vin la Tine. Sfinte Tată, păzeşte, în Numele Tău, pe aceia pe care Mi i-ai dat, pentru ca ei să fie una, cum suntem şi noi. John 17:11and no more am I in the world, and these are in the world, and I come unto Thee. Holy Father, keep them in Thy name, whom Thou hast given to me, that they may be one as we;

Ioan 17:14 Le-am dat Cuvântul Tău; şi lumea i-a urât, pentru că ei nu sunt din lume, după cum Eu nu sunt din lume. John 17:14I have given to them Thy word, and the world did hate them, because they are not of the world, as I am not of the world;

Ioan 17:15 Nu Te rog să-i iei din lume, ci să-i păzeşti de cel rău. John 17:15 I do not ask that Thou mayest take them out of the world, but that Thou mayest keep them out of the evil.

Ioan 17:16 Ei nu sunt din lume, după cum nici Eu nu sunt din lume. John 17:16`Of the world they are not, as I of the world am not;

Ioan 17:18 Cum M-ai trimis Tu pe Mine în lume, aşa i-am trimis şi Eu pe ei în lume. John 17:18as Thou didst send me to the world, I also did send them to the world;

Ioan 15:18 Dacă vă urăşte lumea, ştiţi că pe Mine M-a urât înaintea voastră.
John 15:¹⁸if the world doth hate you, ye know that it hath hated me before you;

Ioan 15:19 Dacă aţi fi din lume, lumea ar iubi ce este al ei; dar, pentru că nu sunteţi din lume, şi pentru că Eu v-am ales din mijlocul lumii, de aceea vă urăşte lumea.
John 15:¹⁹if of the world ye were, the world its own would have been loving, and because of the world ye are not -- but I chose out of the world -- because of this the world hateth you.

Ioan 16:20 Adevărat, adevărat vă spun că, voi veţi plânge şi, vă veţi tângui, iar lumea se va bucura; vă veţi întrista, dar întristarea voastră se va preface în bucurie.
John 16:²⁰verily, verily, I say to you, that ye shall weep and lament, and the world will rejoice; and ye shall be sorrowful, but your sorrow joy will become.

I'm feeling like I'm in this world... I feel the pain...i feel..like i so want to help people around me!!!but since yet they are in this world and they don't understand to do good without hurting or getting hurt...they are used like that...so when I'm trying to encourage, to carry even to comfort somebody...all they think about is that i'm trying to hurt them, or to take advantage...to do everything from interest...

I just got hurt...again..and again..and again...

Is this gonna stop me from wanting to be the way i am (or try to be)!?

All these scars...in my heart...-i feel my heart broken into pieces...-and i feel like throw all that pieces away.....but NO...I'm going to ask Christ to come and stick all the pieces back..

Like Red's lyrics says

"I'm here again
A thousand miles away from you
A broken mess, just scattered pieces of who I am
I tried so hard
Thought I could do this on my own
I've lost so much along the way

Then I'll see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole

I've come undone
But you make sense of who I am
Like puzzle pieces in your eye

Then I'll see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole!

I tried so hard! So hard!
I tried so hard!

Then I'll see your face
I know I'm finally yours
I find everything I thought I lost before
You call my name
I come to you in pieces
So you can make me whole
So you can make me whole"

Sometimes i wonder...is this world pain all about in this life?!...getting happy...getting hurt..and than again happy and than again hurt..... and i can hear a "you got it!" for those who are in the world and yet they don't know that Christ can wipe their tears away...
John 16:20:

²⁰verily, verily, I say to you, that ye shall weep and lament, and the world will rejoice; and ye shall be sorrowful, but your sorrow joy will become.

So I'm just gonna go back to sleep since suddenly God words just made me more confident.

I love you!my dear God...