15 Days, 15 Hours, 15 Minutes, 15, seconds till'

There are exactly 15 days left until me and Jeremy will say "I do!" It is going to be a big day, at the beginning of October when things will be slightly changing. We are both nervous and a little bit stressed out, but we will be fine

Don't look around you, cuz you might see just mean people...

Oh I miss being a child so much! I miss being innocent and not knowing how evil people are. There's a quote in romanian that says "Do now look around, because you might see just mean people..." Here I am, I grew up, and just the other day when I was on my way to, my second job (photographer), I had to go and take pictures of a restaurant and their food so they can put it on the net for advertising, I was thinking that (when I was little) I always dreamed, to be a photographer, and I wanted to see myself busy and involved into a lot of constructive and effective jobs. Here I am! Indeed I prayed and prayed and prayed to God about it and asked His permission and His help and God had listened to my prayers and answered all of them, yes all of them! And here I am, at the beginning of my dreams but I'm not dreaming anymore, it's actually happening! And I'm so scared and nervous, and overwhelmed, but excited, passionate and so BLESSED that I can barley realize that is finally happening. I'm at the entrance of this world that is waiting on me but I take step, by step by step...slowly but surely. Yes, Jesus has poured His blessings upon me!
And this world... the grown up world is so competitive, so jealous, so proud, so greedy, so judging, so demanding, envying and intolerant after all so mean that I don't think I could go on without Jesus by my side. I want God with me. I want His secureness, His love and kindness, His patience. I have never ever been blessed before in my whole life the way God is blessing me. And I look at other people that are so blessed and forget to thank the Lord. Forget all about Him. Forget that He is the One who brought them to this point, this successful point!
I also see other people that are so envy and jealous and mad if someone is blessed. But we forget that we need to learn for each other, as people, we need to support each other and help each other....
 
 

Dear friend,

I've been thinking for a while about a good topic for my blog, and I had to deal with these thoughts for a while. There were times when I said to myself that I shouldn't but here is the occasion and the memories again that don't want to leave me alone.
I moved from Romania to America around 4 years ago. And I'm gonna explain how difficult people are, and how much people change. So when I got here in America, my first words were "vreau sa merg inapoi acasa" I wanna go back home. I couldn't really speak a lot of English furthermore I couldn't even understand a lot of English. I prayed and God helped me out, and until today God is always here for me and I will always count on Him no matter what.
But I wanna say this, the first time when I went back to Romania was after almost 2 years of America, and I went back for Christmas. I was broke, I wasn't sure what to bring to my dear ones (friends and family) but I asked my parents for money, and I use to save all the change that they gave me when we use to go shopping and I found a way to get what I thought my friends will like.
Second time when I went back to Romania... it was...I have to admit.. awful... (Long story short) Ohh I missed all my friends so much that I actually was deciding to move back there after I was finishing high school. (Well... now I'm glad I didn't.) This distance makes relationships so...dry and cold that when I went back, I barely recognize my friends. And this time I had my own money and the best presents ever...but...I didn't even got a chance to share all that with there people because they seemed like...they didn't care.  Everybody seemed so ignorant. I was trying to surprise my friends and some of them got a little surprised but some of them...and I will never forget this, one of my best friends looked at me with a serious face and said "what the heck r u doing here?" now..you know that face with a smile and that expression and then they get all excited and happy to see you-but nope it wasn't that kind of face expression. It was more of a ....what..?!
I was ok...I mean..you know..I wanted to...surprise...or..make them happy ....oh well...
The third time when I went, I stayed only 2 weeks. I was a mission trip and also visited my town. Oh my oh my, I said to myself, I'm not gonna visit anybody this time, nor talk to anybody. It wasn't a surprise so most of the people that knew me, also knew when I'm getting there. But this time I didn't brought anything with me for anybody but family, and I said to myself that I'm not gonna -surprise!!- anybody. Of course it wasn't good enough! Some "friends" found out only after that I've been there, and why I didn't visit them, others just don't talk to me, and others, which is only one I actually visited, still the same.
In conclusion from all 9327438473874.94938493439 friends I had, there is ONLY 1 left that is honest and nice and awesome! :) Thank you dear friend.
After all I still miss my people and those good innocent times, that I will never deal with again, and I still love all those ...friends..that kinda don't like me anymore but... like I said... People change...

Monday-Bible devotional

Behold, how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell together in unity! (Psalm 133:1)

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